Don't read too much into whatever I say or do, write and/or type.. it's all work within my head and like any weather pattern.. there isn't a particular pattern just a flow of energies.

I sit at my desk and wonder, what if people like me COULD make a difference..

Would the world be any different?
if the world could be different, what would change?
would it change to benefit those who need it the most or those that need no help at all?
would the way we as human beings exist change or evolve in anyway? or is that just a fantasy we wish were real?

personally I don't see how one such as myself could change anything, I destroy the lives I try to touch and I don't have to make an effort to do so. (forgive the bad grammar and it IS 2am in the morning, I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeezing)

I guess that's why I'm so angry. At myself, at existence, other people and in general. You see and feel the hopelessness and wonder what difference you could make if any and if it is worth the real effort to try

I feel like writing some poetry! ^^